Friday, September 29, 2006 at 9/29/2006 12:23:00 AM
Everything is ok now.I am happy
he is happy. (well not excatly happy due to his freaking classmates)
gonna get some sleep. haven been sleeping well recently.
Thursday, September 28, 2006 at 9/28/2006 08:51:00 AM
this morning when i woke up,i dun feel like coming to school.i just wanna sleep.
i am so tired.
freaking tired
i woke up with a heavy chest. i feel as if i can't breathe.
help me pls
Wednesday, September 27, 2006 at 9/27/2006 08:41:00 PM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DARA TOH!!!Celebrated with her at the cafe after school today.
Dara had some cheesecake on her cheek.
Some of the guys got it too becos dara smudged some on their faces.
Had lunch with some of my classmates today.it was nice.
Michelle suggested this lunch date i guess.
Luckily I still can click with michelle,hannah and yumin.
imagine there is NO ONE i can click with, i will damn freaking bored in e class.
Today is not excatly a good day for me and him.
I am not really happy today.
this feeling sucks. i hate it , i mean who likes it rite?
Today he din smile much. he was in a super-duper-sian mood.
thanks to his freaking classmates and me.
i think i am quite good at putting on a happy mask when i am actually not.
right now, i can feel my heart sinking.
i wanna cry it out so tat i will feel better.
but there are no tears.
fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk !!!!
I hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Monday, September 25, 2006 at 9/25/2006 03:41:00 PM
black vs white
my kitkat is finally 19
gay partners Some of the pics which we took on kitkat's bday.
Went to chill out at kitkat's place after school, we watched "Someone like you".
His dog is kinda acting strange today, he was rather quiet. Lols.
had our dinner at Redhill market. ate nasi lemak, not bad.
damn tired now. so sleepy. having lunch date with my new class tml.
it sounds werid but its ok, i will just go.
Pi-po i miss alot
Evon Dara Ruth CheeChee Angela
Mian Bobby Keldy Ant GuoWei
Chris Maki
BUT I MISS KITKAT THE MOST!!!
I am addicted to him.
Sunday, September 24, 2006 at 9/24/2006 11:48:00 PM
woke up at 9 today and got ready to go to work.i dragged myself out of bed.
was so tired.
the sucky feeling got worse this morning. i guess its cos tml is monday
monday blues.
i hate school now but i know what i need is time.
i need time to adapt to it.
i am gonna miss him alot.
the amt of time we are gonna spend together will be lesser compared to last sem.
watever shit hell it is, or how far apart we are physically,my heart will be still with him..
23Sep06
i woke up at abt 9am with a nose running abt (alrite i had running nose) to bake a cake for kitkat.
but i used a heart-shape cookie cutter
to cut out small little heart-shape cakes for him.
my mum did help me abit and she was jealous.
Lol. becos i din do all these for her birthday.
by the time i reached his place, its 3plus.
I was so tired after all those sneezing and the medicine i took. fcuk!!
i needed a sleep. so we slept for an hour plus.
by the time we got ready to go out. its like 6plus.
We had nydc at holland V (alright thats damn far for me).
there were abt 11 of us, we bought cheesecake for kitkat.
sang the bday song. took some funny pics.
we headed for One Rochester at 9plus. It is a very nice place.
nice place to chill out with frenz or lovers.
Friday, September 22, 2006 at 9/22/2006 07:22:00 PM
Getting ready to go for the family dinner.tml is kitkat's 19th bday!!!
Lol. finally he is the same age as me. Lols.
Too bad the 'main' present can only be given to him next week.
I Love Kitkat
I Miss Kitkat
finally the last team is presenting. soon it will be 6p
and YES i can go home!
hate school now
today is science module. something to do with some freaking cell membrane.
its happening.
a few girls frm other class asked him for his email address.
obviously to add him in msn n chat with him.get to know him blah blah.
i expected such things to happen but din expect it to happen so fast.
its only 2nd day of school.
i cant help it but to feel insecure.
i need assurance.
fcuk, hate this feeling
i duno wats wrong with me.
finally i will be having dinner with my family
will be eating at Big Splash.
haven been eating with them since May.
1st day of Sem 2.
Thursday, September 21, 2006 at 9/21/2006 09:10:00 PM
When I woke up this morning,the thought of changing class made me felt so sick.
I dun wanna change class.
All of us were only in the same for like 4months.
4 short months.
I haven had that i-dun-wanna-go-sch feeling for a long time
and BINGO! i had it this morning.
My new class has many girls and only 5 guys to be excat.
They dun look freaky to me but i still miss my old class.
sigh.
When sem 1 just started, i was still very new and duno the pi-po there,
but at least i still look forward to sch the next day.
BUT now, i hate school. i used to love school.
My old class is so united.
The guys and gals will still look for each other during breakouts and after school.
some of us hang out in the canteen today after school.
as some of us had not had our lunch.
we talked. we bitched.
we teased each other.
we laughed together.
its so fun. i doubt it will happen to my new class now.
:(
when i was chatting wit kitkat in msn today.
tears formed in my eyes.
in e past i can just turn around and look at him.
and now, i can only look at his DP.
i miss him so much. i miss my old classmates too.
we merely changed class. he is just in the next freaking block.
but look at me, i am like dying. fcuk fcuk fcuk fcuk!!!
i am having yuki withdrawal syndrome.
Took these silly pics at his place.
getting ready to go Ikea
Oh fcuk, abt 9 more hours, i will be seeing my new classmates
was wondering what and how will they be like.
some irriating freaks or what?
arghhhhhhhh..
i am excited but sad at the same time.
sigh.
Wednesday, September 20, 2006 at 9/20/2006 10:33:00 AM
19Sep06
Met up with kitkat last night after work.
while i was withdrawing money he told me which class he went to.
and the class which evon went to.
tears started to form in my eyes. i know its silly.
its just changing of class.
i dun really know how to explain the feeling I had.
its like, i thought i am fine with it
but when it really happens,i am like ''oh shit.''
i hate changes. got to adapt to a new environment again.
kitkat is in W1 while i am still in W2.
luckily dara is in the same level as me.
suppose to work today but i told the in-charge that i got something on.
and so they cancelled my slot.
i wanna spend this day with kitkat before school starts.
there will new challenges and changes.
i dun welcome them but i have to face it.
going to cook porridge now and will be chilling out at his place today.
we plan to have our dinner at Ikea.
alrite that is damn far away from me but the food there is nice and affordable.
Tuesday, September 19, 2006 at 9/19/2006 01:13:00 AM
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TUNGI!!!!!!!!
finally she is 18. Lols.
i have been waiting for this day.
we shall go club next month!!
We had dinner with her at new york new york.
we were kinda noisy. we talked alot.
i haven seen them for quite some time.
updated each others' personal life. those interesting events.
Lols
Poor kitkat, 90% of the time he was quiet. i dun blame him becos he is not familiar with the girls.
He left at about 10pm to meet matt but in e end matt din meet him so he went home.
After dinner, we went to Esplande (unsure if its spelled like that) and took lots of pics.
will upload it after tung,ling and mei sent me.
i must meet up with them at least once a month.
i am always busy with my own stuff. i should give some time to them
my precious gfs.
love u all. but i love kitkat the most. Lols
Monday, September 18, 2006 at 9/18/2006 05:17:00 PM
Taken in July in some place near PS.At kitkat's place now. so damn freaking cold now.
his air con is directly blowing against my back.
he is resting on his cosy bed with a nice warm blanket right now.
we are suppose to go back to school to fix my laptop.
ok not fix it but to change the password cos i am not able to log into LEO.
damn leo.
IT help desk closed at 5.30pm so obviously there is not enough time to go back to school.
he volunteered to get it done for me tml.
Meeting my sec sch buddies later at new york new york to celebrate tung's bday.
kitkat is coming along with me.
its time to bring him to meet the girls. i should have done it earlier.
hopefully he wun feel left out later.
He is my sunshine kitkat.please don't take my sunshine kitkat away from me.
He brightens up my day.
Shooing all the irritating grey clouds away from me.
16Sep06
Today is Matt's 18th birthday.
finally he is 18.
Lols. His so-call wish this year is to get a gf by 18.
alrite pi-po, dun mistaken him, he is not deseperate.
he is a very nice guy. i am pretty sure he will get a gd gf soon.
We went Bloogies for dinner. somewhere at Clementi.
CLEMENTI!! its like so damn far for me. argh..
kitkat picked me up after work. we took a cab to Bloogies from clementi mrt station
that cab driver made kitkat damn pissed off.
but anyway, the food at Bloogies were good.
Thursday, September 14, 2006 at 9/14/2006 10:52:00 AM
Went O bar and momo last nite with cherleen,esther and anna (cherleen's friend)I think i drank alot last nite and got crazy by 2am i think.
But this time i din ran around like how i did when i went Butterfactory with kitkat the other day. Lols. So embarrassing!
When we were about to go home, i broke one of my heels.
the girls sat on the chair to rest awhile while i sat on the floor. Lols.
In short, i was crazy last nite! But i was not drunk. I knew what i was doing.
Had fun with them last nite.
I did not remove my make up when i got home, i just changed and went to sleep.
Cherleen sent me right up to my doorstep and i vomited at the nearby drain. Lols. ARGH embarrassing embarrassing..
Meeting kitkat at Kovan, going to Cold Storage and get some ingredients.
he is coming over and I am suppose to cook for him.
But right now, I dun feel like cooking. I am still feeling giddy..
argh..fcuk fcuk fcuk!
and finally i am meeting Evon,my beautiful girl later on in the evening.
we r going to ikea to get something. miss her so much..
Will upload some pics we took at Obar.
Wednesday, September 13, 2006 at 9/13/2006 01:06:00 AM
12Sep06i woke up this morning feeling sad that that day ended so quickly.
it was a very memorable day.
One of the happiest thing that happened to me.
the feeling I experienced is totally different compared to the past.
I miss it so much.
I met up with kitkat after work today.
I bought a Gio junior polo tee and he was like "wah! u bought gio JUNIOR?"
We had cakes and drinks at coffee bean.
finally get to eat Tiramisu (error in spelling i think)
haven been eating that for quite some time.
and YES! finally i am going to club tml. its LADIES' NIGHT!!
will be going with cherleen and esther.
i am sure it will be fun.
i am gonna drink drink drink drink and DRINK!
Lols
Gonna get a hair cut before going to work.
it better be good. Lols
I miss kit kat
i miss kit kat
where is kitkat?
omg, i am crazy for kitkat
Tuesday, September 12, 2006 at 9/12/2006 01:46:00 AM
11Sep06time flies. that night just ended like that.
we were lying on the bed hoping to fall asleep.
but we just kept talking and BOO its 4.30am.
I fell alseep first in his arms. its so nice.
everything is so beautiful.
its unbelievable, sometimes I still cant believe that we are tgt.
its so amazing.
I was awaken by his dog at 8plus.
his dog kept scratching his door. every half and hr tt dog did it.
disrupted sleep. argh..
in e end he let his dog into the bed. Rich was on e bed with us and tried to lick me.
eeeeewwwwww...
Rich did not wanna get out of the room (which means i cant sleep cos i dun feel secure)
In e end kitkat carried it out again.
ahhh finally can sleep peacefully. Woke up at 12plus and took a shower.
We met up with matt and ate at New York New York.
we went national library to see an exhibtion on world press photo.
the pictures were well taken. some were disturbing pictures.
i got phobias for war and bloody pictures.arghhhhhhh
after tat we went to matt's place, he wanna show kitkat some WOW movies.
while the guys were watching that, i was reading Cleo mag.
we had BK after tat and went home.
the day just ended like that.
sigh.
school is reopening soon.
I am happy and sad at the same time that school is starting soon.
fcuk fcuk fcuk!
Monday, September 11, 2006 at 9/11/2006 01:25:00 AM
i know nothing in this world last foreverthis word "forever" does not exist in my dictionery.
therefore i wanna treasure the people around me before its too late.
i wanna cherish the time spent with him.
i dun wanna regret in the future like how i did in the past.
my love for him grows deeper each day.
the deeper it is, the fear of losing him is greater
oh man, i hate this feeling.
its funny,i am on his bed using my laptop msning
he is the owner of the bed
yet he is lying on the floor watching some werid video using his laptop.
i am so sleepy...
gonna sleep soon i guess..
today is a special day.
have to treasure it and i will never forget this kinda feeling.
Sunday, September 10, 2006 at 9/10/2006 12:40:00 AM
Will be staying over at kitkat's place tonite.this is my 1st time staying over at his place.
will treasure the time spent with him.
love him so much.
most likely we will be shopping on Monday! YEAH!!
09Sep06
went to eat Burger king after work with esther and cherleen.
it was fun to hang out with them.nice pi-po
i got to know cherleen even more after today.
she is so cute.
going to ladies' night with them next wed.
haven been clubbing for 2months plus..awwww..
Tuesday, September 05, 2006 at 9/05/2006 04:02:00 PM
These few days my body has been aching. So tired.
I guess i have been working hard. LOL!!
For the sake of money.
For the sake of the trip to Korea end of e year.
ARGH!!!
Talking abt Korea, i am so damn excited.
Lols.
Went to polyclinic to see doctor
(obviously to get an mc so i dun have to work today)
The waiting time was damn long.
Imagine i am damn sick, i guess i would have die there while waiting.
Gonna meet my kitkat to go raffles place to collect my hamper.
I have won for myself a Ettusais Pore Care hamper.
Lols.
Gonna go prepare now. *lazy lazy lazy sleepy sleepy sleepy*
Monday, September 04, 2006 at 9/04/2006 02:35:00 AM
i was kinda disappointed at the Krunk party.its not as fun or exciting like what i thought.
Was persipiring while dancing at the open field.
awwwwwwww.
i dun quite enjoy outdoor parties.
well obviously i am not an outdoor person.
got home 3plus i think. damn tired, still gotta work the next day.
kitkat cooked spaghetti (error in spelling i think) for me on Fri.
he made grilled chicken fillet for me too.
it was nice. i still remember the taste.
yummy!! i WANT MORE!!!
on sat, i was not feeling well but still i gotta work. ARGH!!
after work i met up with kitkat.
he made me sandwiches with sweet egg.
some kind of japanese style of cooking the egg.
seriously, i always have this thinking that eggs are not suppose tp taste sweet.
i still eat it, i mean he is so sweet, made it for me.
i really appreciate it, thank you.
we watched Monster House on sat, alrite its kinda stu but its touching.
i had a fever and we went 7-11 to get panadol.
i felt better the next day and went to work.
The new launch is on 4th Sep. so we gotta OT.
worked till 1am. phew, that was tiring.
wats worst, i gotta work on Monday but will be at Chinasquare. YES!!
I can finally work with my frenz again, i treat Imah and cheryl as my gd frenz.
i dun really see them as my colleagues.
alrite alrite..gonna sleep now!!
*what a long entry today*